my diary

this is so hard to say that im hopeless
but...
its the real thing

Oka feat Sabria - In My Eyes (lyrics)
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special in my eyes
since you’re in my life
always on my mind
so special in my eyes
every day and night
i'm feeling like come home
i’m singing you this song
and never be alone
special in my eyes

girl, i cant wait till the sun comes down
coz a good girl is so hard to find
see, im trying to obey your order
just like a soldier, say yes sir,
i wanna be your number one
without you i'm half blank like minus one
i think about you all the time
before i go to sleep every night
u’re first thing in the morning
it’s you inside me since day one
burry me six feet deep underground
its crazy yeah you proudly would
pray for your love too if you was in my shoes
when you down i got you chill
towards you i stay class till forever still
i'm down to be down with you
in my arms, girl, to be save and sound

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even though you playing hard to get
i never expect you would like me back
its hard to believe we connect
day by day we sees down the gap
till the sky we flap
I still remember the first time we met
arbitrary girl it’s like a fairy tail
the past left me drain

completely ever since then i'm blend with my misery
but everythings different now
coming at you is the ring and the wedding gown
u gotta be around when i’m down
down to be a good friend the most girl around
cause i’m gonna do the same thing
without you i'm senseless coz you are my instinct
di celah kaki hujan kita berdansa bercumbu dalam asa

everything is gonna be alright
trust me coz i'm giving you my life
how do i get you to understand
i gotta have you more than just a friend
i gotta have you to be my last and
i dont want you to be my past

baby no doubt
in a matter of fact
i wanna be your future
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i want you to be my last and
i dont want you to be my past

baby no doubt
in a matter of fact
i wanna be your future
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everything is gonna be alright
trust me coz i' m giving you my life
how do i get you to understand
all i want is you to be my man

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I'm Dying, Dying to wake up without you, without you in my head again
I'm Dying, Dying to forget about you, that you ever lived
There's a shade come over this heart that's coping with laying down to rest
I'm Dying to live without you again

I'm Dying, Dying to find a distraction, get you away from me
I'm Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion, so that the world can see
It's the same old story of love and glory that broke before it bent
I'm Dying to live without you again

The first time you left I said goodbye
Now there's not a prayer that can survive

Dying, Dying to die just to come back so we can meet again
Dying, Dying to say what I always should have said
It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...

I'm Dying and I can't live without you
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

.... sepertinya ku memang benar- benar terluka. sejak kejadian itu. jauh dilubuk hatiku, sometimes aku ingat dia. parfumnya masih melekat di pikiranku. senyumnya, candanya, perhatiannya, dan segalanya. honestly, semua itu makin membunuhku. kadang membuat pikiranku hilang kendali.

aku hanya ingin melupakannya. kemudian menata hidup kembali.